_{by jaymamma.}

Here I am again just jotting down events and my thoughts on said events. I often find myself wondering why. It is not like anyone will ever read this, well maybe when I’m dead. Still it serves to pass the time while the others do the mundane things they do. Mercarri is tending the dwarves wounds, I think I prefer he just hides. She is literally just wasting healing magic. Not all of us are cut out for adventuring and murder and and all that, I’m sure he will make a fine blacksmith. The combat and murder though, that is obviously our forte.

Mystic is still playing with her moonbeam, charming. Dare is for some reason checking every zombie for loot maybe? I don’t know what the hell he’s thinking really.

“Dare , they are zombies I doubt your going to find loot on them.”

He stood up from the zombie he just rolled ass to the sky, and scratched his head.

“It’s funny but I don’t think he was having sex with them, the bums look normal? I guess for a zombie.”

My god he was dense. 

“Dare he wasn’t, I think he was telling the truth about his daughter”

A look of thoughtfulness flashed across his face for a moment and then was gone. Then he shrugged and carried on with his business. 

Poor wizard. A wizard I felt bad for, the world also seemed to be turning ass up along with the zombies. This had all been unnecessary. A threat removed from Phandalin? I really don’t think he was a threat at all. 

Was dare truly just devoid of  inner monologue? The man had known him, and about some loss of Dare’s? Was that what prompted his response? I giggled as I watched Dare flip over another zombie. If it was calculated, he at least put the effort into the ruse. He shook his head after inspected its bum. He then grinned stupidly, or was that a cocky smirk? 

“Copper for your thoughts” said Mercarri as she sat down next to me. 

She continued “We just killed that wizard for no reason, didn’t we?”

“Well, you and I kind of didn’t have a choice in the matter”

“But he didn’t have to die”

“No, he did not. But, I would back any one of you against anyone if it came down to it, zombie rape accusation or not.”

“I see you three are as thick as thieves, Ajax as well when he is present”

“I think he has doubts, not in us maybe in himself, Hope he comes around, we would always be better with him.”

“I can see how he would have doubts, take a look around”

“We do what we do, sometimes it doesn’t always go the way we want”

“Like Ely?”

“exactly like Ely sometimes people have to die, its just so easy to lose sight sometimes of which ones, and how many people that shouldn’t die are an acceptable loss”

“That’s horrible”

“Yes I know all too well” 

“There has to bee a better way than this?”

“If there is we don’t know it, maybe that’s why your here. Tell me has your god never warranted the death of innocents? Somehow I doubt it”

She sighed but didn’t respond.

“Good evil its all subjective. How do we know in a hundred ten days from know this wizard wouldn’t inadvertently raise a legion of zombies in his experiments. Many a mage have gone mad in search of something they shouldn’t find. That legion washes over Phandalin and many die, maybe all. What would we say then? Its impossible to know, maybe we did good here, probably not but we will never know.

She thought for a moment. “Or maybe that legion of zombies headed northwest and took care of our dragon problem”

I smiled “could be” We can only do our best day to day and hope it works out, not saying we don’t carry the weight of our deeds, and won’t one day have to pay for them.

Dare was now checking out the carcass of the wizard. He lifted up his robe.

“Aw fuck” and put his face in his palm.

“What” I yelled.

He gave us a haunted look. “He’s got no dick, he’s a fucking Unic. Suddenly in unison Mystic, Mercarri, and I all introduced our palms to our faces as well.